Current volunteers said that there would be ups and downs throughout this experience, but that the ups and downs in the first few months would be a veritable roller coaster. They weren’t lying. In fact, some days I question my mental health. I just doesn’t seem normal to go from hope and rainbows and big plans one minute and on the brink of tears, fighting the urge to punch strangers the next. But it happens – sometimes multiple times a day. If you’re a visual person, I would say my mood throughout the day kind of looks like this:
So, I take the good and the bad and suppress that urge to punch people. It’s a process. And sometimes it sucks. But, then again, sometimes it’s incredible. And eventually I think I’ll get to a point where I’m not victim to the roller coaster, but a happy rider.